Faith, Faith, Flour, & Sawdust

I got Guts!

ER Visits are no fun

Yesterday I found myself in the ER, I am a frequent visitor to this hospital. My gut doctor is at this hospital so if it is gut related that is where I go. This was not a great visit, the staff was off but I need to get pain relief. I have Ulcerative Colitis and battle with chronic pain most days. This is what it looks like when after 3 days the pain wins. 

Being Transparent

I post this with some hesitation, but I am all about keeping it real. I understand that several of you are curious and not sure why I have been so sick lately. Stick with me this is a long post, but it will explain a lot. Most of the time I am trying to look badass, feel badass, but not be badass. Yesterday was not that day and neither is today. But I will go on and P!nk will be my inspiration!

No more remission

When I was 23 years old, I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis. I went on medicine and within 6 months it was under control. I went 18 years without medication. In April of this year, my UC flared back up. I have been sick ever since. I know a lot of you have no idea what UC is. I can only explain my symptoms and experience, each person has different symptoms and responds differently to meds.

What is it?

Ulcerative colitis affects only the lining of the large intestine (the colon). I have Pancolitis. Pancolitis often affects the entire colon and causes bouts of bloody diarrhea that may be severe, abdominal cramps and pain, fatigue, and significant weight loss.

Ulcerative colitis, an auto-immune disease, meaning that your body is essentially attacking itself. Everything I put into my stomach, even medicine, my body would treat like an invader and try to fight off. And any sort of bacteria or viral infection could bring on the symptoms too. Doctors don’t really know what causes ulcerative colitis and it’s incurable. It seems to run in women on one side of my family tree.

Ulcerative colitis can be debilitating and can sometimes lead to life-threatening complications. While it has no known cure, treatment can greatly reduce signs and symptoms of the disease and even bring about long-term remission.
Ulcerative colitis symptoms can vary, depending on the severity of inflammation and where it occurs.

What are the symptoms?

Signs and symptoms may include:

  • Diarrhea, often with blood or pus
  • Abdominal pain and cramping
  • Rectal pain
  • Rectal bleeding — passing small amount of blood with stool
  • Urgency to defecate
  • Inability to defecate despite urgency
  • Weight loss
  • Fatigue
  • Fever

In my case it is like having constant flu-like symptoms during a flare, now imagine that going in for 8 months.

My faith will see me through

Yes, it is rough and no fair but God will see me through this. As Granny B would say, it is what it is and this too shall pass. I use humor a lot to get me through the rough times because I can laugh or cry and I would rather laugh. It is ok to be scared but with my faith, I expect miracles, big miracles.

Matthew 17:20 Faith can move mountains

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